原来的还是没变

也许是我太天真了吧
认真的以为自己可以学会等待
可是我还是没有变
等待对我而言真的是一种考验
或是一种折磨吧
不是我没耐心，
而是我真的没有那个信心
对你而言可能是给我的测试
但一年真的是会累
心累了
比什么都累
我不知道我还能等多久
时间真的是一种考验
对我是一种很煎熬的考验

an answer

it is really a question to myself for a long long time...
but i try to avoid and refuse to face it,
not that i am afraid of the answer,
is because i had know the answer actually,
but i think today i finally officially get the answer.

an answer from your guys,
an answer that i already know,
an answer that i dont really like,
an answer that really hurts my heart...

like a sentence the most,
"when you can help then you are member,
but when you cant then you just like nobody who pass by"

the road still there,
i may leave this car but not the way,
cause there always other car ready for me,
i may leave the team but not the love of Jesus.

disappointment

sometimes, life is full of disappointment,
is that we asking too much or just we not worth it.